Chained Emotion

Alone in the darkness, I sit, I pray...
    For someone to hear me just once.
This has gone on for many a day..
    It seems years...now another month.

I have these images kept from dreams,
    Ones I never have during the night.
They are of a feeling it would seem...
    But it's never there, away from sight..

Being alone is all I seem to have,
    For me to know and even believe.
I know nothing of that special laugh,
    Or the pleasure that it could leave.

There are no hands for me to hold,
    No eyes which I can lose myself in...
There's only the lifeless, empty cold,
    Like the chest of the man made of Tin.

There's nothing of my heart to remain,
    Seems that my feelings helped do this.
Because it is true, they're simply a pain,
    Hurting what as they want and wish.

I wonder about the silence of my curse,
    That left my soul in a lifeless wake...
The Fates just seem to make it worse,
    Giving me chains that will not break.

I allowed myself to wrap that silver bind,
    To help envelope what's left of my heart.
Leaving emotions in the back of my mind,
    An attempt to keep me from falling apart.

I may laugh, even play with those I know...
    But if they ever looked, they never found
That loss I have...because I'll never show,
    It will remain chained, locked and bound.

So I guess I'll sleep alone, and stay silent
    About a love I will never have in my life...
I hope this feeling will pass as it was sent..
    For I cannot continue this lifeless strife.

Yet, maybe, just maybe...I'll have the day,
    To behold someone special to my eye...
Who I may love and cherish in every way,
    ...one who'll never say, "Goodbye"...